hey everyone!
just came back from church- HOPE! (x
yeah, actually i didnt want to go again for church this week.
BUT,
somehow, yesterday, something funny happened. EVERYONE i talked to on MSN (late in the night) were somehow talking about church tomorrow. :/ & i had that emptiness in me again, & that awkward feeling with this thought- why?? why didnt i want to go church??":S
YEAH.
it was an awful feeling. spoke to mom & dad AND BFFs, all wanting me to go to church.

a little history on me-
i admit. im not a regular-goer to church. trust me, i know nothing about everything. what i know is fragmented pieces of this & that but never the sole truth. its been like 8-10 months since i went to a church. i mean, i DO pray at home- before sleeping or in needy times, but aside from that... D: i fail to go church every sunday.

reasons:
- i was working like for 6days a week & usually on weekends the place where i work tends to get busier so i had to work. i USED to work at Raffles Hotel as a sales assistant in the gift shop for your info. :/
- i couldnt get up on time. yeah, thats my fault :S

anyways.
today's sermon got me really thinking. like thinking HARD. & this was like ONE OF THE FIRSt time i actually gave some considerations on my attitude towards God especially. it was EONS ago since i went for youth service back in spore (glory presbyterian church) and actually sang like never before.
then the pastor spoke on baptism- to want to be identified with God, to follow him. & it hit me. i wasnt baptized YET. i mean, baptism as a baby isnt counted y'know! back in my church in spore, i was attending a baptism lesson whereby those who wants to get baptized had to go through a rigorous course of bible study for 13weeks. but cos of my poor attendance in church i dropped out of the course. D:

but i really DO WANT to get baptized. :/
BUT,
im a presbyterian. and the church im going to is a charismatic.
does it matter???
:/

sigh.
tell me now what!

gazillon thanks to lester for sending me back & also thanks to zhilin who fetched me there today. :))

this song keeps repeating in my head NOW,
This is our God.
:D

please give me a direction- anything! D: